Stupid. Foolish. Dumb. Brainless. Lazy.
I’m not myself anymore.
First, I keep on staying away with things that I should prioritize.
Second, I have become more… rude.
Third, I don’t do assigned tasks and assignments.
Fourth, I’ve changed. A lot.
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These past few days weeks, I’ve been really off at school. No oral recitations, no reporting, no assignments, projects were submitted late, quiz scores were failed (not all though); practically no Ariane sitting inside the classroom. Physically present but mentally absent. Ahh yeah. That’s it.
I don’t know. Subjects are becoming more… boring. Instead of listening to the teachers lecturing I don’t know lessons, I read instead. Not textbooks or any related school books, but fanfictions. (I’m evil, I know).
Just this morning, my classmates were busy beautifying their assignments, but me? naaah, I did nothing.
Also, I’m late on our first subject (English) almost all of the time, making me miss points. Stupid, I was the highest on the over-all quizzes last grading and the second highest was 50 points below my score. TT______TT
And I’m no more the representative of our class for the Extemporaneous Speaking. I just screwed it this very morning. Our Sir asked me the question and gave me two minutes to think. (Question: Why is it important to study the English language? (or something close to that - it’s pretty easy, but I don’t know what’s it with me T_T)) My answer was pretty good at first, but on the middle, I blurted out: “Ay. Ang pangit ng sinabi ko. Huwag nalang sir.” Our Sir looked at me with a questioned look in disbelief, nodding for me to continue, but as I scanned my brain for something good to say, I shook my head, shoulders slumped down, head facing the floor as I walked back to my seat. Oh dear gods, what’s happening to me?
I’m still the contestant for the Spelling Contest, but…
And I’m rude. I’m no more the approachable type. Maybe just sometimes. I still smile (thanks to the fictions I read). I always, always, always see something bad or wrong towards others. I give bad comments on everything, even though I know that it’s none of my business. Even to the people I do not know.
And as I think about it now, I feel so dirty. Sullied. Tarnished.
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I just lost my USB. My USB with lots of stuff including the Chapter 3 of Enchanted. My oh-so-precious USB. And did I mention that I was just holding it when I realized it was lost? Yes. I’m that stupid. And now my Papa is quite upset, not because of the price (since the USB’s rather cheap) but because of me not valuing the things he gives. I also lost my purse with my supposed for Eclipse money. And I was just holding that purse, too. T____T
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Goodness gracious. May you bless me.
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